I try to pretend that July is not a cold, heartless bitch. The first 39 of my Julys lured me into thinking that it was the best month ever. 31 days completely […]
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Vacationing without Mike
I’m feeling terribly ungrateful and selfish. I know that there are people (lots and lots of them) in this world who have it much worse than me. There are moms who can’t […]
The 29th of EVERY SINGLE month…..
The 29th has some kind of weird power over me. I try to control it, I try to ignore it. I try to make it fun, cool, or memorable. I try to […]
My 4-legged best bud
I went for a beautiful hike yesterday at Phillips Lake. Much like my summer of 2015, this one will be, in part, spent preparing for a long hike. We’re doing a group […]
Gardening can be ridiculously sad
I am thinking about a planting a garden this Spring. That statement should not require a blog post or need any introspection on my part. It should be simple – buy some […]
Brave
I have been a self-proclaimed wimp all my life. I have taken the comfortable, easy path. Change is scary. At work, we were told how resiliency is great and were assigned “Who […]
I choose happiness….
Today is the 3-1/2 year anniversary of Mike’s death. 42 29ths without him. 42 months of some shitty, hard, hard, hard decisions. During that time, we had to put our 14 year-old […]
Three years….
Maybe it’s a July 20 thing because based on Facebook, I apparently had a similar feeling last year on this date. Or maybe it’s that July, previously my favorite month of the […]
Meatloaf
Freaking meatloaf. Who’d have thought that would practically send me over the edge? I didn’t know I liked meatloaf that much, or at least was this emotional about it. The other day, […]
31 29ths
Today marks 31 29ths we’ve survived without MikeO. I wonder sometimes when I will stop knowing (without thinking about it) the exact months and days that have passed since 7/29/13 – the […]
GRIEF IS A DIRTY BIOTCH 