So much for March showers bringing April flowers. I think April is the worst month. Skiing is, depressingly, over. I am struggling. The weather is cold and crappy. A few bad weeks […]
Carpet and other crap
I have been feeling absolutely, completely defeated. Everything I touch goes to $hit, it seems. I have so much to do and no motivation to do anything. The Emmett house is constantly […]
Grief, the fun-stealing a-hole
I am sick of grief stealing my fun. My annual fishing tournament weekend is usually a memory-filled great time. I have been looking forward to it for months, hoping it would FINALLY […]
Grief feels grumpy
Sometimes, I am so irritable that it’s a miracle I don’t injure someone. I love activity and having kids around and I want our house to be a fun place for everyone […]
Crying…again
I just had a regrettable moment with a sweet, sweet electrician. He worked on my hot water heater yesterday and stopped by this morning to pick up a tool he had left. […]
Decisions
Looking back, I realize what a wild ride these past 4 months have been. I have made more decisions in 19 weeks than I had made in my previous 39 years. Decisions […]
Crying……the suckiest of the sucky
I have been a giant crybaby most of my life. I have a bad day at work, tears are slipping uncontrolled down my face, making me feel ridiculous. I get my feelings […]
The beautiful, weird new house
I spent the first night in the new house. It was unexpectedly sad. I think that I expected it to be more exciting, hopeful, uplifting. Perhaps fresh and forward-thinking. Instead, I felt […]
Moving
These past few days have been heart breaking. I am at less than one week from when the movers come. I have so much to do and no mental strength to do […]
Fun isn’t always that fun
I had a very enlightening weekend. I went to Reno for a girls weekend. It was good, but hard. Noticing a theme here…everything is freaking HARD. Although there were moments of challenge […]
GRIEF IS A DIRTY BIOTCH 